Shahid Shaheed Ho Gaya - VII

magar agale shaniwaar ki wo raat phir kabhi nahin aaee.

agale guruwaar ko office pahunchate hi mujhe do maheenon ke liye Australia jaane kaa order milaa.

mainne bahut qoshish kari ki meraa jaanaa ek do din ke liye hi tal jaaye, magar koi faayadaa nahin huaa. kisi client kaa saaraa kaam atak gayaa thaa.

aur mujhe usi shukrwaar ko Australia ke liye nikalaanaa padaa.

main Shahid ke liye koi message bhi nahin chhod paayaa. mere pass na usakaa ghar yaa garage kaa address thaa, na koi contact number. jaane kyon mainne Rajendra se usake baare mein poochhanaa theek nahin samajhaa. Rajendra maze le le kar sabako bataataa ki main Shahid ke baare mein poochh rahaa thaa, use message de rahaa thaa.

jaate samay mainne multi ke chaukidaar se hameshaa ki tarah kah diyaa thaa ki main do maheenon ke liye videsh gayaa hoon. agar koi poochhe, to bataa denaa.

par Australia mein bhi main tan-man se sirf Shahid kaa ho kar rahaa. is baar mainne kisi ladake se sex nahin kiyaa waranaa abhi tak to foreign tours kaa asali mazaa to us mulq ke jawaan laundon kaa swaad chakhane mein hi thaa. mainne usase waadaa kiyaa thaa isaliye mainne ek baar bhi mutth nahin maaraa. bharane do kunwaan labaalab.

jab do maheene baad main waapas lautaa to poore raaste mere man mein Shahid samaayaa huaa thaa. mujhe yaqeen thaa ki wo meri majabooriyon ko samajhegaa aur mujhe maaf kar degaa. phir wo apane waade ke mutaabik koi raat mere saath bitaayegaa, aur mujhe yaqeen thaa ki ab wo apana badan apani khushi se mere hawaale kar degaa. do maheenon ke intazaar ne mere badan mein aisaa jwaalamukhi bhadakaa rakha tha jo Shahid ki gaand mein laavaa chhod kar hi shaant hone waalaa thaa.

main usake liye dher saari giftein le kar aayaa thaa, jo apane ki raat mein use har baad chodane ke baad ek-ek kar ke dene waalaa thaa.

Saturday ko main apane flat pahunchaa. dher saare letters flat mein pade the, magar unamein Shahid kaa koi message nahin thaa.

mainne chaukidaar se bhi kuchh nahin poochhaa. do maheene mein kaun-kaun aayaa, itanaa use kaise yaad hotaa. aur na hi main Shahid kaa cheharaa, badan bataa kar usake baare mein poochh sakataa thaa.

phir main sotaa rahaa aur shaam ko bhi kahin nahin gayaa. ho sakataa hai wo sanyog se aaj hi aa jaaye. par wo nahin aayaa. waise mujhe usake aane ki ummeed bhi nahin thee, par dil hai maanataa hi nahin. use to maaloom bhi nahin hogaa ki main waapas aa gayaa hoon. kisi din wo idhar se guzaregaa to shaayad flat mein dekh le. mujhe lagaa ki wo chaukidaar yaa rajendra se nahin poochhegaa.

Sunday ko bhi main kahin nahin gayaa. abhi tak mainne apane doston ko bhi nahin bataayaa thaa ki main waapas aa gayaa hoon waranaa wo aa kar mujhe Sunday picnic par kheench le jaate.

Shahid us din bhi nahin aayaa.

Monday ko main shaam ko office se badi ummeed se waapas aayaa. ho sakataa hai ki aaj shaahid aa jaaye.

multi ke neeche, apani dukaan ke baahar Rajendra aaj akelaa khadaa thaa. mujhe dekh kar usane badi zor se "hello, bhayya" kahaa, jaise do maheene ke saare jamaa ho chuke strokes ek saath nikaal diye hon. main bhi usake paas gayaa. ho sakataa hai ki wo Shahid ke baare mein kuchh bataaye.

Rajendra ne bade utsaah se poochha, 'aap kab waapas aaye, bhayya?"

mainne kahaa, "parason aayaa thaa. do din se ghar se baahar nahin nikalaa. apane ghar mein aaraam karane ki baat hi kuchh aur hai. aaj office gayaa thaa, ab waapas aayaa hoon."

phir hamane kuchh faalatoo baatein kareen. wo Australia ki life ke baare mein poochhataa rahaa. usane yah bhi hint dekar poochhaa ki time kaise guzarataa thaa, company kaun detaa thaa, magar mainne usaki hint ko nahin samajhane kaa faisalaa kiyaa.

usane Shahid ki koi baat nahin kari thi. phir main bye bol kar jaane lagaa, tab usane kahaa, "haan, bhayya, ek baat to bataanaa bhool hi gayaa."

mainne kahaa, "ab bataa do."

wo ekdam serious ho gayaa thaa. usane kahaa, "sorry bhayya, mainne anjaane mein galat logon ko aapase milawaa diyaa thaa."

mainne aashcharya se poochha, "kaun se galat log? kyaa huaa?"

usane kahaa, "wo ek ladake ko aapase milawaayaa thaa naa, Shahid?"

meraa dil dhak se rah gayaa. mere munh se koi aawaaz nahin nikali. wo kyaa kah rahaa thaa? main use ajeeb si nazar se dekh rahaa thaa.

usane yah samajha ki mujhe Shahid ke baare mein kuchh yaad nahin aa rahaa hai. usane hint di, "wo aapane ek ladake ko bolaa thaa na ki usaki aawaaz bahut achchhi thi."

mainne kahaa, "haan. wo." phir poochhaa, "kyaa huaa usako?" ab tak main bhi thoda satark ho gayaa thaa, aur apani bhaawanaaon ko chhupaa paa rahaa thaa. magar meraa dil zor-zor se dhadak rahaa thaa.

Rajendra ne kahaa, "wo pakadaa gayaa, Bhayya. I am sorry. jab mainne use aapase milawaayaa thaa to bhagwaan qasam mujhe usake baare mein kuchh nahin maaloom thaa. kisi ko bhi nahin maaloom thaa."

mainne man hi man sochaa, "apani gaand men ghusaa le apani qasam ko. jaldi bataa kyaa hua use?" par mainne kisi rasedaar khabar sunane ke liye dikhaaee jaane waali utsuktaa ke saath bolaa, "kyon pakadaa gayaa? kyaa kiyaa usane?"

phir Rajendra se isi tarah serial ke episodes mein jo maaloom padaa wo yah thaa.

main jis Friday ko Australia ke liye nikalaa thaa, usi din police ne Shahid ko arrest kar liyaa thaa. Shahid ek chor aur blackmailer thaa. wo akele rah rahe raees mardon ko apani khoobsoorati ke jaal mein phansaataa thaa, unaki gaand maarataa thaa, par unhein apane saath kabhi kuchh nahin karane detaa thaa.

usake shikaar use paane ke liye kalap jaate the, aur use badi rakam de kar chudane ko raazi kar lete the, aur Shahid acting karataa huaa tayyar ho jaataa thaa.

phir Shahid kisi raat ko apane shikaar ko apane saath sex karane dene kaa waadaa kar ke usake yahaan rukataa thaa aur us shikar ko kisi tarah se behosh kar detaa thaa. phir wo aaraam se raat bhar mein unake ghar ki ek-ek cheez khol kar saari keemati cheezein apane saath le jaataa thaa. behoshi mein wo apane shikaar ki kaee tarah ki nangi tasveerein, aur khud ko chhupaa kar shikaar ko chodate huye bhi tasveerein kheench letaa thaa.

usake shikaar police ke paas bhi nahin jaate the, ki unaki apani hi badnaami ho jaayegi. phir Shahid wo photuvein dikhaa kar unako blackmail kar ke moti rakamein ainthataa rahataa thaa.

Rajendra ne kahaa thaa, "Shahid ki diary mein 40 mardon ke naam, address aur contact numbers mile the. police ne zyaadaatar ko trace kar liyaa thaa aur unhonne Shahid ki shinaakht ki aur saari daastaan bataaee. kuchh to shahar chhod kar hi ja chuke the. tab police ki maar peet mein Shahid ne apane saare jurm qubool liye. Shahid kaa chaachaa usake is kaam mein usakaa partner aur guru thaa.

Shahid aur usake chaachaa donon ko 12 saal ki qaid huyi hai."

phir Rajendra ne bomb phodaa, "bhayya, usaki diary mein aapakaa naam aur address bhi thaa. police aapako poochhate huye aaee thi, magar sabane bataa diyaa ki aap to maheenon foreign mein rahate hain. mainne bataayaa ki aap Shahid se mere saamane ek baar ek minute ke liye hi yahin par mile the, mere aur teen aur ladakon ki mauzuudagi mein."

phir Rajendra ne kahaa, "Shahid ne kahaa ki aap par bhi usaki nazar thi, magar wo abhi aapako phansaa nahin paayaa thaa. aapakaa naam usaki diary mein aakhiri entry thaa, aur aapake naam ke aage aapakaa phone number tak nahin thaa, isaliye police ko yaqeen aa gaayaa ki aap abhi usake shikaar nahin ban paaye the."

phir wo arthpoorn nazaron se meri taraf dekhane lagaa.

mujhe Rajendra kaa wishwaas jeetanaa bahut zaroori lagane lagaa.

mainne usake saamane surrender saa karate huye kahaa, "dekh Rajendra, sach kahoon, to wo us din ke baad do teen baar mere flat mein aayaa thaa, aur kabhi paanch minute, kabhi aadhaa ghantaa rukaa thaa."

phir mainne apaani aawaaz ko dheemi karate huye raazbhari banaate huye, yaad karane kaa naatak karate huye kahaa, "haan. ab mujhe lag rahaa hai ki usane mujhe sex ke baare mein kai hint diye the. kabhi wo apanaa badan dikhane ki qoshish karataa. kabhi wo meraa badan chhoone ki qoshih karataa thaa. magar main itanaa bewaquuf thaa ki mainne usaki harkaton ko usakaa bachapanaa samjhaa thaa. are yaar, mainne kitanaa badhiyaa chance miss kar diyaa." phir mainne jaise Shahid ko yaad karate huye apane honthon par zabaan pheri aur phir Rajendra ko aankh maari.

Rajendra gandi hansi hansaa.

mainne serious hote huye kahaa, "wo poori raat kabhi mere yahaan nahin rukaa thaa. chaukidaar se puchhawaa detaa hoon."

wo bolaa, "police chowkidaar se poochh chuki hai. usane bataayaa ki usane Shahid ko building ke aaspaas ghoomataa to dekhaa thaa, par use dhyaan nahin ki wo kabhi building ke bheetar aayaa ho, yaa raat bhar rukaa ho."

mainne hansate huye kahaa, "yaar, sach kahoon to agar wo mujhase gaand marwaane ki baat karataa to das-bees hazaar to main use khushi se de detaa. kyaa maal thaa wo." phir main apani sabase gandi hansi hansaa thaa.

Rajendra bhi apani sabase gandi hansaa thaa.

chalo, baat khatam ho gaee thee. saaf manaa karane se logon kaa shaq nahin mitataa. kuchh sach bolo, aur apanaa koi gandaa cheharaa dikhaao to log yaqeen kar lete hain.

phir Rajendra ne kuchh sochate huye kahaa, "sorry bhayya, mainne do baar aapako topi pahanaaee."

main chaah kar bhi anjaan banaa nahin rah paaya. ek to usane itani furti se topic badalaa thaa, aur saath hi mainne sochaa ki aaj chhoti moti baaton mein pooraa sach bolanaa hi behatar hai.

mainne kahaa, "haan Rajendra, koi istemaal kare to buraa lagataa hai. tum saaf-saaf kah dete ki tumhein party chaahiye, to main das baar party detaa, par tum mujhe bhulaawaa de kar le jaate the aur kharchaa karawaate the, yah mujhe achchhaa nahin lagaa thaa."

phir mainne sochaa ki Shahid ki baat apane munh se karoon to usakaa shaq aur kam ho jaayegaa, kyonki use lagegaa ki main shahid ke ziqr se ghabaraataa nahin hoon. mainne kahaa, "magar ab mujhe lag rahaa hai, ki Shahid jaise logon ki kartooton ke saamane to tumhaaraa wo topi pahanaanaa bhi bahut bhali baat hai."

main muskuraayaa. usake chehare kaa tension khatm ho gayaa.

phir mainne kahaa, "is Saturday ko apane jitane chaahe utane doston ko bulaa lenaa." phir mainne announce karate huye kahaa, "monday ko Bhayya tum sabako ek bumper dinner party denge."

usake chehare par koi khushi nahin aai. bolaa, "meraa koi dost nahin aayegaa, Bhayya. Mummy, Papa ne mujhe warning de di hai ki agar ab kabhi dukaan mein yaa aaspaas un shohadon kaa majamaa lagaa dikhaa to mere haath paanv tod daalenge. mainne sabako yahaan aane se manaa kar diyaa hai. ab yahaan koi nahin aataa. ab mainne naye dost banaanaa shuru kar diyaa hai jo achchhe gharon ke ladake hon."

mainne kahaa, "tum akele ho to saturday kaa i.ntazaar bhi kyon karanaa. kal main aur tum five star hotel mein dinner par jaayenge."

wo khush ho gayaa. usane kahaa, "done, Bhayya. thank you."

main bye bol kar multi mein ghusaa. lift ke neeche hi chaukidaar mil gayaa. mainne apani purse se paanch sau kaa note nikaal kar use diyaa, aur kahaa, "do maheene se baahar thaa, tumhein kuchh de nahin paayaa. jaane kaun-kaun se teej tyohar nikal gaye. un sabakaa ek saath le lo."

usane mujhe salaam kiyaa aur bolaa, "aap jaise logon ke multi mein rahane se hi hamaara kharch nikal paataa hai, saaheb, waranaa do hazaar rupayon ki tankhwaah se aajkal kyaa hotaa hai. hamaraa bhalaa buraa to aapase hi judaa huaa hai." phir wo kaee arthon waali muskuraahat muskuraayaa.

mainne usaki muskuraahat kaa koi bhi matalab na samajhate huye kahaa, "yaar, main to tyoharon ki khoj-khabar rakh nahin paataa hoon. kabhi koi tyohaar aaye, to khud hi aa kar apanaa inaam le jaanaa. aakhir wo tumhaaraa haq hai."

phir main turant lift mein ghus gayaa aur oopar kaa button dabaa diyaa. to chaukidaar ne apani samajh se hi police ko Shahid ke baare mein jhooth bol diyaa thaa.

sab theek thaa. mujhe koi khataraa nahin thaa. mainne chain ki saans li.

lekin flat mein ghusate hi mujh par ek depression taari hone lagaa. mujhe har us jagah par Shahid dikh rahaa thaa, jahaan par wo un dino khadaa huaa thaa, baithaa thaa, letaa thaa. usaki shaql, usaki muskuraahat, usakaa goraa, chikanaa, mulaayam, nangaa badan meri aankhon mein ghoom rahaa thaa. usaki bhaari par mulaayam aawaaz mujhase kah rahi thi, "aaiye na, bhayya. aaj apani date hai. bahut tarasaayaa hai aapane is raat ke liye."

aur main deewan par gir kar phoot phoot kar rone lagaa.

main abhi bhi yaqeen nahin kar paa rahaa thaa ki Shahid ne wo sab kiyaa hogaa. par ab mujhe usakaa tareeqaa saaf nazar aa rahaa thaa. main bhi kaise aaraam se usake jaal mein phansataa chalaa gayaa thaa. agar meri company ne mujhe Australia na bhejaa hotaa, aur Shahid pakadaa nahin gayaa hotaa, to main bhi us Saturday ko lut chukaa hotaa, aur hameshaa ke liye usake blackmail ke jaal mein phans chukaa hotaa.

main rotaa rahaa.

Rajendra ne bataayaa thaa ki Shahid ne apane kisi bhi shikaar ko apane saath kabhi kuchh karane nahin diyaa thaa. aakhir shikaaron mein banaa huaa wo sexual tension hi to unhein usake jaal mein le aataa thaa. agar shikar use hasil kar lete to phir usaki kyaa parwaah karate. mainne sochaa ki agar main Shahid se lut chukaa hotaa, aur Shahid mujhe blackmail bhi kar rahaa hotaa, to bhi main khushi se usase blackmail hotaa rahataa, is ummeed mein ki kisi na kisi din to mujhase apani chudawaa legaa.

main rotaa rahaa.

jail mein to Shahid jaise gore, chikane, mulaayam launde ki har din chaubees baar chudaai honi hai, mote, taaqatwar, bhayaanak, beemari bhare criminals ke lambe, mote landon se. gaand bhi, munh bhi, pitaai alag, goo khaanaa aur moot peenaa alag, ek ke baad ek darjanon.

main rotaa rahaa.

12 saal tak jail mein laakhon, karodon baar chudane ke baad jab wo rihaa hogaa to usaki jawaani guzar chuki hogi. jism dhal chukaa hogaa. usake pass na koi hunar thaa, na degree, aur ab to us par sazaayaafta muzrim kaa billaa bhi chaspaa ho gaya thaa. wo rihaa hone par kyaa karegaa? kyaa wo paanch-paanch rupayon mein gande se gande, beemar se beemar mrdon se apani gaand marawaayaa karegaa aur unake lund choosaa karegaa?

main rotaa rahaa.

yaa kyaa wo bheekh maangegaa? kyaa 12-15 saal baad wo kisi sadak par mujhase bheekh maangane aayegaa? kyaa main use pahachaan paauungaa? kyaa wo mujhe pahchaan paayegaa?

mainne dekhaa ki main apani badi si car mein apane beewee, bachchon ke saath kisi crossing ki batti par rukaa hoon, aur ek gandaa, beemar boodhaa lapakataa huaa meri car ki khidaki par, apani bhaari par mulaayam aawaaz mein kah rahaa hai, "ek rupayaa de do, baabooji.". nahin. jail mein 12 saal munh chudaane ke baad aawaaz bhi badal jaaegi.

main rotaa rahaa, rotaa rahaa, rotaa rahaa.
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meri aankh khuli.

main shaayad so gayaa thaa. Shayad kyaa, so hi gayaa thaa. aur ab jaagaa thaa.

main kai maanon mein soyaa huaa thaa. aur sahi maayane mein ab jaagaa hoon.

mainne ghadi dekhi. raat ke 11:30 baje the. meraa savera ho gayaa thaa. mummy, papa abhi jag rahe honge.

mainne apane ghar ring karaa. papa, mummy se baat hui.

mummy ne chhootate hi poochhaa, "galaa kharaab hai kyaa? aawaaz kaisi aa rahi hai? sardi lag gaee lagati hai. kuchh dawaa wagairah li ki nahin?"

main kyaa bataataa ki yah sardi kaa nahin, mere rone kaa asar hai.

mummy dukhi ho gaeen, "akelaa padaa hai. kyaa khaataa hogaa? kyaa pahanataa hogaa?" unaki inhin baaton se main hamesha chiddh jaataa thaa aur phone kaat detaa thaa.

magar aaj nahin.

aaj mainne poochhaa, "to kyaa karoon? naukari chhod kar tumhaare paas aa kar padaa rahoon?"

unhonne kahaa, "naa re. too shaadi kar le aur bahoo ko saath le jaa. phir meri saari chintaa door ho jaayegi."

mummy intazaar kar rahi hongi ki unake kaanon mein phone kaate jaane ki click sunaae degi. magar unake kaanon mein meri aawaaz padi, "OK!"

unhonne kahaa, "ok, betaa. apanaa khayaal rakhanaa"

mainne kahaa, "maine ok nahin "OK!" kahaa hai. "Oooooo Kkkkkk!"."

wo khushi se chillaaeen, "are. sunate ho. tumhaaraa betaa taiyaar ho gayaa hai."

papa ki aawaaz aaee, "kyon? phir kahin jaa rahaa hai? abhi parason hi to lautaa hai."

mummy ki aawaaaz aai, "of fo. jaisaa betaa, waise baap. ARE. tumhaaraa betaa shaadi ke liye tayyaar ho gayaa hai."

paapaa ki ek "wow" sunaai padi.

unnhonne mummy se phone jhapat kar bolaa, "good decision, son. It is right time."

mummy ne unase phone jhapat kar kahaa, 'ham kal se hi tujhe photo aur bio data bhejane shuru kar denge."

aur phir unhonne jaldi se bye wagairah bol kar phone kaat diyaa. unhein dar thaa ki main apanaa faisalaa badal na loon.

magar meraa faisalaa badalane waalaa nahin thaa.

mujhe meraa sabak mil chukaa thaa.

There is no free lunch.

god mein aa kar gir padaa phal aaj ke daur mein kisi bhagawaan ki bheji hui nemat nahin hotaa hai, balki kisi criminal ki chaal hotaa ai.

ab sab band.

main 25 kaa ho chukaa thaa. ab mujhe settle honaa hai.

yahi sahi hai.

yahi sach hai.

meri aankh se phir se aansoo tapakane lage.

main maatam manaa rahaa thaa.

Shahid Shaheed ho gayaa thaa.